30 days and 20 letters left till Codys graduation. Thanks God while he's in A-School he'll be able to call me. Since he's been in bootcamp he's only been able to call me three times. :( Talking and sharing stories through a piece of paper is a lot harder than I thought it would be. Its romantic in a way. I have those things he's said to me (which are the sweetest) recorded on a piece of paper I'll have forever. I just miss his voice.. The way he breathes. The way he gets so excited when he laughs at his own corny jokes.


I remember the first time I laid eyes on Cody. He walked with a slouch.. He was dressed in a Hollister shirt and baggy shorts.. Haha completely not my type at all.. But made it look adorable. Don't even ask me how I felt the first time I saw his smile.. His smile was like the ones they used on toothpaste commercials. They were obviously to perfect to be given to him that way.. I saw the years of very obvious braces because they were just amazing.. It was a feeling I couldn't ever describe.. As cheesy as it is.. Everything about him took my breath away.

The first month of our relationship was as perfect as his smile. We had a near magical first kiss (caused by one of his amazing witty comments), we saw eachother what seemed like everyday and I didn't find myself getting tired of him. I woke up every morning with a "Good Morning beautiful" text.. And went to sleep every night with a "Goodnight Beautiful, sweet dreams" text. It was like God listened to what I was asking for. My perfect guy. The one I knew from the start that we were made for eachother. I'm not gonna sit here and type till my fingers bleed and tell you my relationship with Cody is perfect. Because it's far from it. But not being with him.. Or even breaking up with him can't ever completely cross my mind. It'll be like pullin the plug of my life support. Because this boy makes me feel more alive then I ever have.

So just 30 days left.. 29 days and 30 nights. I can do this. When he first left I could barely catch my breath.. But now I just feel like it's getting easier. Time really does heal all wounds. Absence really does make the heart grow fonder. I will make it. We will make it. I will marry Cody Gallo.

I love you.

-Jess